I hate what I’ve done to myself, and it makes me want to do it more. To make these ugly, marked arms even worse.
I feel like I’m going to ruin everyone’s prom pictures. Ill spend the night crossing my arms, being self conscious and I hate that I have to feel that way because of my actions.
Why do I do this to myself? Why can’t I stop doing this? Why can’t I feel ok enough to no longer need to do this?
I think I’ll always self harm, for the rest of my life, how ever long it may be. I don’t think I’ll ever find a ‘healthy’ way to cope.